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#20 Each day as it comes…

#20 Each day as it comes…

A friend called me as the clock struck 12 midnight, on the 20th Dec. A rendition of the Happy Birthday song followed. Yes, I had just entered into the 33rd year of my being. On one level it’s just another day, just another birthday. Yet on another level, one I wasn’t...

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#19 Because meanings matter…

#19 Because meanings matter…

The 11th of December will never be the same. It was a day that changed my life, and the meaning it has, forever. Today is one year since Mr McCullough, gently nodded his head and quietly said “yes, it’s cancer”. Everything inside of me just wanted to crumble away, to...

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#17 A chemo cycle with Mo

#17 A chemo cycle with Mo

A lot of people have asked me what chemo is and how it's given to me. I decided to film a chemo cycle with the various parts stretched over 4 days in one video. It's my first ever public video, filmed on my iPhone (a bit shaky) and edited on iMovies so it won't be...

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#14 Nine Months On

#14 Nine Months On

It has been 9 months to the day when Bridgewater (the oncologist) uttered those words; ‘You have a small chance of success’.  That day, that moment, I was shattered. I remember thinking; ‘What’s the point of having treatment?’ Those words were a gift in a strange way....

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#13 A surreal 7 months

#13 A surreal 7 months

It's the eve of what I hope is my penultimate chemo cycle. In fact I wish it was my last. Actually I wish I didn’t have anymore chemo. But this was the plan I signed up to and so far the treatment is going well, thankfully. This will be my 11th chemo round. I’m just...

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#11 coming to terms

#11 coming to terms

It was 30 years to this day (5th June 1985) when my dad left the physical body, and joined the soaring angels. As Rumi said; 'When I die I shall soar with angels. When I die to the angels, what I shall become you cannot Imagine". I wrote the poem below in July 2009....

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